A Phoenix must Burn into Ashes Before Rising up.
As 5 years past after graduating Nursing school, I’ve set my focused on work and never myself. It was constant work for 5 years which caused me to block out events in my life due to situations and decisions that I had me face the consequences, the hurt, the pain, and the mistrust of those who can support me and of my family. My own happiness was fading away slowly within myself. I would hide behind a smile, fake my happiness so no one could see past that. I don’t want your sympathy towards me, I don’t want you to feel bad or feel guilt about my situation or myself. There are reasons why we choose the path we embark as we grow older. I always wanted everything I do was good enough for my parents and have them proud of me, but it wasn't ever enough. Every downfall, I was hoping and yearning for my parents love or sympathy, as I grew up sympathy wasn’t a feeling, it wasn’t even in our emotions. Yes, we sympathize you when it comes to death, hardships, but for other reasons, I hear “Don’t sympathize yourself, just be stronger and let it all go.”
Sympathy isn’t define in my family’s dynamics. We are outspoken, up front, problem solvers, risk takers, and we will accept any challenges we face as a family. Through the ups and downs we face as siblings it was instill in us that we should never let go of bloodlines, but those aren’t shouldn’t be more significant than your own family. I understood and development how to be sympathetic to others is when my parents were developing homes for the elderly and the special needs. Dealing with developmentally disabled clients you have to show sympathy to who they are, how they communicate, and how you are overall around them. As I sympathize about others, I forget about myself until I burn out. I down grade myself, I listen to all the negativity around me, I just talk down to myself, which has become a habit, but now is the time it stops.
This is the time where I praise myself for accomplishing important events in life, where I reach my dreams, fight for what is right, and just reborn a better version of myself. Yes, we always say its a new me and all this, but when you rebuild and reborn yourself from within each aspect of your wellness will improve. It isn’t just our mental wellness or physical wellness, but its wellness within the deeper us.
For overall self wellness, there are eight areas of wellness one must take time to unfold one area at a time. Every time you unfold an area, you feel each emotion, every moment of pain, but the healing process is beginning. The eight areas of wellness are physical, intellectual, environmental, social, emotional, financial, spiritual, and occupational.
To start off with self healing would a journal, which is a good way to document your progress, map out which area needs to be focused on. Meditate, which helps you find balance in your breathing and in your mind. You become one with your breathe. Finding different avenues to help you release the stress, release what you feel is holding you down, what is causing you so much burden? YES, it may cause you to go in depth with your emotions and your mind, but it benefits you in the future of your life.
